November 2001 - i've decided to leave november completely untampered with because so much of it is about the beginnings of my relationship with erik. this was also a big mood disorder month for me as i updated quite often.

October 2001 - this month is when i swung from depressive to manic... and back. i was also feeling very fragile and just wanted someone to validate my existance so i could go back to normal.

September 2001 - the honeymoon period with my roommate. it's clear why it didn't last after reading this... and real life proves too trying on that internet relationship i mentioned for last month.

August 2001 - this month i was venturing into the second, and last, internet begun and based relationship i have been in. bad idea? yeah, i knew then.

July 2001 - i spent this month pretty much looking for something to keep me busy.

June 2001 - the beginning of the summer and a period in my life which i refer to as clinical depression number two. unemployed and alone... smell the isolation.

Spring 2001 - this documents the end of my sophmore year of college. i went through a lot of changes this year and spent the whole time in transition desperately anticipating some stability.